Tag: self-harm emotional surges

Foggy Victorian beach mid-morning with blank canvas showing chaotic swirling strokes on easel, disordered driftwood piles, Bass Strait backdrop, representing CPTSD emotional dysregulation, rage, numbness, and breaking through trauma cycles.

CPTSD Emotional Dysregulation: Wild Strokes

This week the canvas rebels with emotional dysregulation's wild strokes: sudden rage, numb voids, shame that floods the colours. Inherited from a digger's storms, these waves crash hard, pulling alcohol and self-harm in their wake. A breath between surges offers fragile ground.

Written by: Blank Canvas

Published on: 24/02/2026

About

I’m Elara Thorne, a 35-year-old artist tucked away on the Victorian coast, gathering driftwood and watching Bass Strait storms roll through. Behind the pseudonym and the paint lies the long shadow of a childhood shaped by a combat veteran father’s anger, silence and neglect. This blog is my canvas for Complex PTSD – raw, disguised stories of hypervigilance, alcohol’s haze, depression’s grey wash, and the slow, stubborn return of colour. No confessions, just strokes towards something new.